The beginning

It all started when i was about 14 I was just starting high school at an all black high school pretty much and i saw an ad while watchin porn and skipping school one day for blacks on blondes..the creators of the dogfart series. Naturally i was curious so i started to watch some of their material and next thing i knew i was hard and jacking of to this white girl getting her asshole gaped by a seriously hung thug, not only was she getting gaped but she was being humiliated by these 3 black thugs and she looked like she loved every second of bein called racist names and such. I busted my nut while watching that so quickly i started to frequent the site. Thas when i started looking for interracial groups on yahoo so i could jack off to the pics and videos people had posted. That is when i found groups on yahoo for wife breeding and "OBEAH" and i was intrigued so i kept joining them until i had a couple hundred groups includig everything from regular interracial dating, cuckolding, feminization of whitebois, femdom, breeding, OBEAH, blk superiority and everythig in between. I was hooked! Ever since then i have been gettin more and more taboo with my porn. I will get random urges to jack off to it now...i am drawn to it...and as much as i tell myself no i need to watch regular porn or anything other than these types of porn i always. Ome back to it after i have deleted all my bookmarks of stories and pics, captioned pics and cancelled all my subscriptions to these types of sites. After a while about age 17 i started fantasizing about being fucked by a black man and totally surrendering to him...never any other race always black. I then thought about submitting to a blk couple , it got worse and i wanted to be used and objectified by blacks . I wanted so badly to suck a big black dick. Well at the age of 21 i got my chance... He was about 8 and thick it was on thanksgiving day at my gay buddies house and granted he was a Bi blk guy not the thug type i fantasized about i put my hand on his crotch and asked him if it would be wrong if i
wanted to suck his cock, he pulled down his shorts and said go ahead, so i did and the second i had seallowed all 8 thick inches i was in love! No gagging or anything just going to town on him like i was posessed..he later tOld me it was the best head he had ever had and thought i was lying about it being my first time. When he told me that a little part of me was all giddy and proud, proud that i was the best and proud that i could make a blk man feel so good and give him that gift. Ever since he used my mouth and throat, Took control and fucked my face and talked dirty to me and called me racist names and used me as his lil whiteboi cum dumpster i have wanted more i yearn to be treated like that and used for a black persons pleasure. I now know my place thnks to him, he affirmed what i thought to be true and fantasized about..that blacks are superior to me sexually , i might be a straight looking an acting man who lives pussy but i want to serve blaks and i dont know what makes me want to but i want to go all the way now i want to serve ad hae a blk daddy train me and my future wife feminize me so we can serve together, maybe i feel like it is my little Part of reparations or that deepdown inside they truely are superior but i want to life the lifestyle or at least try, i want to try to further the cause and spread the gospel of the Black Cock Church and help and encourae all whites to submit to blacks. I just had to get that off my chest . Thanks for readin subscribe and follow ke in my journey. more to cum later...lol